我們的身體很老實,只要感覺到痛就會流淚,但是我們的心是大騙子,就算痛也會默不作聲。所以才會等到入睡了,暗自像狗一樣低聲哭泣。 Our bodies were so honest that they cry when feel hurt;our hearts were such liars that were silence when getting hurt. That is, we sob like dogs after sleeping.

Kris
6 min readApr 1, 2021

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雖然是精神病但沒關係 韓劇心得

It’s Okay to not be Okay.

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文英和鋼太其實很像,外表與內心其實差距很大,他們不善於表達自己想要的,但文英是用負面、陰暗的反社會人格,並且殘忍的拒絕別人來回應世界,明明很渴望被關心、被安撫與被愛,卻總是用臭臉和傷人的言語趕走對方;鋼太卻是隱忍住一切困難與委屈,對於有自閉症,還沒長大的哥哥不會反擊,只會隱忍,明明很想要好好玩一場,明明很脆弱,但一直假裝堅強的生活,為哥哥撐起整片天空。文英覺得鋼太活得沒有自我,要他為自己著想,還對尚泰這個對弟弟有很強佔有慾的哥哥說出「文鋼太是文鋼太自己的」;但鋼太也覺得文英對自己像是那頭長髮一樣,困住自己,封閉內心,因此幫文英剪掉長髮,讓她擺脫多年的壓力。

第8集「美女與野獸」除了文英終於剪掉束縛她的長髮外,鋼太更在停職後意外的開心,要文英「綁架他」出去玩,像是「美語與野獸」中的貝兒一樣,帶著野獸敞開心房,不要那麼暴戾,他們各自是對方的貝兒與野獸,因為他們互相拉了對方一把,或許也是兩人看似反差卻意外互補的個性,才會成為彼此的愛人。他們的愛情有著治癒的力量,兩個童年有遺憾的人互相完整了對方。

人與人之間,不能隨便排順位,就像黃色也分鮮黃色、淺黃色、暗黃色,顏色都會因為明度、彩度而不同了,當然我們對每個人的喜歡、珍惜、依戀也都會不盡相同。

最喜歡的部分就是拍全家福的那一集,第13集「薔花與紅蓮之父」,因為發現文英的母親都熙才就是殺死鋼泰母親的兇手,而都熙才胸前的蝴蝶別針成為尚泰最大的噩夢。這一集的標題故事,講述薔花與紅蓮的父親被繼母挑撥離間,並且兩姊妹更被繼母害死,這似乎也暗示著文英小時候沒有感受到母愛的伏筆。再來則是尚泰最喜歡的卡通高吉童,高吉童跟媽媽是不同品種的恐龍,可是尚泰卻說: 雖然不是真的媽媽,但是假媽媽很愛很愛高吉童,就算品種不同,還是可以當家人。

我認為這集最讓人感動的就是當鋼太知道文英的媽媽就是殺母兇手,但還是忍著悲傷穿上文英為她挑的西裝前往拍攝全家福,全家福是一張看似普通卻有重大意義的照片,因為拍了全家福,就是家人了,就算文英跟鋼太兄弟沒有血緣關係,但是拍照後,就是家人了。這也是鋼太一種對於家人的愛,一個會痛的愛,但他忍住了,因為身為家人的文英更重要。

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Focus on Moon-young and Jang-tae, we found that they two were actually similar with some traits as they both got used to hide their true thoughts and pretend they were strong and durable. Moon-young had antisocial personality, so that she tended to refuse others’ aids by her cold personality; Jang-tae always had great sufferance to every tragic things happened such like taking care his autistic brother after he making disasters.

However, they two were belle and beast like the title of episode 8, story “Beauty and the Beast”. Moon-young consider Kang-tae live like he was not belonged to himself, so she declared to Sang-tae that Kang-tae was not his belonging that he belonged to himself. Despite Moon-young, Kang-tae also helped her cut her long hair as a representation of loosing pressure of Moon-young’s mother. The reason why Moon-young and Kang-tae loved each other might because they both had pains but they healed each other together.

We can not rank our love to everyone we love such like colors could be distinguished by chroma and brightness, not to mention human. Those cherish, love and dependence to different people would be different as well.

Sang-tae’s favorite cartoon was a dinosaur raised up by a mother dinosaur that had different breed from him. In episode 13, The Father Of Janghwa and Hongryeon, he knew that though did not have same blood and gene could be family as well. Consequently, the time Kang-tae knew their mother was killed by Moon-young’s mother, he still wore the suit chosen by Moon-young and took a family photo with them. The scene was my favorite part that the family photo was special that even though they do not have same breed relationship, after taking the family photo, they became family.

Kang-tae took Moon-young into consideration of a member of their family, that was why he tolerated his sorrow and appeared in the photo on time. Because it was a kind of love to family of Kang-tae, a love that was pain but worth to have.

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